Random Thoughts

I am so tired.  Sleep does not seem to help my exhaustion.  I am lonely.  I wish I had someone to talk to at night.  Just six more months until I have a partner again. I have no idea what things will be like when he returns.  Phone calls seem pretty sad now.  There is never much to talk about.  I never have anything to add to the conversation.  It is hard to listen because the girls are always--being girls. 

As much as I dislike being a single parent, I have gotten used to it.  It has been six months already.  He has been gone so much this past year.  A few weeks in January.  A few in March, a few in April, more in May.  I don't like it. Yes, it is good for his career.  But when is is my turn?  I love being Mom, but I miss being Leslie.  I miss being able to go dancing with girlfriends (or husband).  I miss just being able to eat dinner in front of the TV. I miss training in Tang Soo Do.  I miss photographing weddings and events and beautiful things out in the world.  Heck, I would like to be able to shower without my door open so I can let the bathroom get all steamy.  I like that. 

That is all for now.  Everyone is asleep and it is 9:30pm.  Time for bed.  Good night.